Atlas of My Memories

If anyone ask me to describe my life as first year medical student in Monash, I will answer by saying "Pathetic yet Boring"........
I really don't like my life now, I miss my secondary school life eventhough had more subjects to concern about than now...I had 13 subjects with 29 papers but now only got ONE exam and ONE paper...Should be happy right???Less papers, less worry...But I do feel like I'm not who I'm!!!!!!!
My daily routines start by going to lectures, then tutorials and Lab/Prac/Workshop/PCL....Feel like having many stuffs to study but sometimes I do feel dunno what to do, my mind really goes blank as if all my brain cells are killed. Yesterday, being taught 7 anatomy chapters within two hours (CRAZY), I ended up learning nothing, some subjects are really useless for me and I find that no point to study like sociology(zero learning), Health Enhancement Program(Mindfullness until mind stop functioning). Besides, I don't like my clinical skills tute as we can't understand the tutor teaching, what we ask, he can't get; what he answer, we don't understand( maybe that's why i FAILED my clinical skill exam). And the Practicals are totally waste of time, before and after the prac makes no different to me. I always end up learning nothing, same goes to PCL as well.
Haiz, I hate my life now..................................................................
I don't feel I'm a medical student now. My life seems like doesn't have any direction, God pls be my light, guide me through this boring life. Whenever I want to study, I have no idea what to study as I'm not sure what is my syallabus also, a bit immunology, pathology, histology, anaotmy, sociology, HEP, genetics, Pharmacology, Microbes, and many other bio stuffs.....
My life is not like a life.....Just hope that tomorrow will be better.....

5月21日，也就是今天对我来说是一个特别有意义的日子，让我欢喜，也让我优。。。
两年前的今天，是我们童话世界的起点，彼此答应对方会好好地珍惜对方，不会让我们爱情的火焰给熄灭，会爱彼此比永远多一天。我们都看到属于我们的未来，深信不会有分离的那一天。
当时，我真的很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉，你几乎是百分百的完美。我不曾说你野蛮，不曾讨厌你千金小姐脾气，喜欢被你欺负的感觉。我愿为你付出我的全部，6.00早上陪你去槟城上学，等你放学，陪你回家。。。我不曾埋怨我为付出的时间与金钱，不曾希望从你身上得到任何回报，只希望你会爱我。我跟你说过，爱我非你莫属，我愿成为你的天使，默默地守护着你，不让你受伤害。
但，一年前的今天，你亲手地将我们爱情的童话给毁灭。你狠心地提出分手，一点机会也没给我，我打了很多次的电话给你，你都不愿意听，要求我别烦你。你真的伤透了我的心，你说你再也发觉不到我的优点，只有我的不好。不知几个夜晚我都无法入睡，哭了好久。但我也清楚我们再也无法回到当初，我再也无法相信你对我说的一切。
过后，你找过我很多次，要求复合，说你那样做只是要激励我，要我关心你多一点。真的很好笑，分手时，你很果断，很狠心；但当你察觉到我的好，要求复合时，却能低声下气，跟我说“我爱你”。但已太迟了，一切都已过去，就如泼出去的水，再也无法收回。
You're the one who starts it, and you're the one who stops it.....It's too late to apologize...
Like teh song 'apologise' by Timberland ft One Republic.....
我不曾后悔与你分手，反而要谢谢你让我更成熟。我再也不是以前天真的我。谢谢你让我感觉爱的滋味，让我有了许多的第一次，第一次的恋爱，第一次的相吻。。。。。。
过了今天，我再也不会记得5月21日是什么日子因对我来说再也没有意义了。。。一切都随风而去，消失得无影无踪。。。

Today is Mother Day----a day that you guys must express your love to your beloved Mum....
I would like to share a story of a dad(dad also same with mum as they are our parents) that i learned in my life group.

"I will drive when others sleep. I will work while my family plays. I will stay alert when they are unaware. I will risk frostbite as they sit by the fire, and i will eat the heels while they eat the rest of the loaf. I will drive through the night as my wife and children sleep away the miles. I'll carry in the luggage and my children even if I see them trying hard not to smile. I won't give two hoots if they forget to thank me because i love doing it...especially for them!!"
This story is short but let us realise that our parents do sacrifice a lot for us and take good care of us and sometimes we not even realise, appreciate or thank them.......But they never complaint about it because they love us, unconditional love from them that accompany us in our lives journey.

Many of us may think that we no need to show our love to our parents, telling them that you love them. When was the last time you tell your parents that you love them? When was the last time you touch/ hold your parents' hands? Or give them a hug? All of us sure can say "I Love You" / hugs to our boy/girlfriend, but never do the same things to our parents who work hard to raise us.......

Do remember to tell you parents that you love them today especially for your Mum in this special day(Oversea ppl, do call back to tell them, the phone bill cost nothing compared to their sacrifice on you...). However, we shouldn't just wait until Mother/Father Day only show them your love to them, we can do it every moments as we never ever know what will happen tomorrow, don't regret when it is tooooooo late......

I love you Mum, Happy Mother Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Adidas bag

After that I went to DFO in Spencer St but nothing catch my eyes. Hence, went to Harbour Town.

Overall, I spent more than AUD$300 in few hours.....Really broke now but I'm still happy for the day. It is worth. Haiz, is time going back to revise my Anatomy lecture...T.T